Tl;dr : I ghosted my ex of a year whom I've been friends with for many years and I feel terrible about it

I'm new to the red pill/manosphere and I'm going through a process of unplugging from a life time of AFC beliefs and systems.

I was friends with this girl for many years and eventually we ended up dating for about a year and 8 months. I was completely open with her about my flaws, fears etc, and tried to be a 'good boyfriend' according to feminine standards(which I realized was a mistake after getting into the manosphere).

Eventually she seemed to lose affection and blamed it on her transitioning and being more emotionally independent. I gave her the option to take a break from the relationship which ended up with her breaking up with me and just becoming friends (LJBF).

After red piling myself I realized that nothing good would come out of being friends with her and IL just continue to lose time and resources on her (since I still did favors etc). So I blocked her on all my SM platforms and Calls.

Now I feel terrible about it, seeing all those missed calls and dissappearimg without an explanation. Especially since we've known each other for ages before even dating and Ive always thought of her as being 'nice'.

Could it be that I'm just suffering from a lifetime of feminine conditioning and I should just suck it up and move on (after all she's the one who broke up with me) . Or should I feel bad and get back in contact with her