hello asktrp, im a 19 years old dude.

as you can imagine from the title, i never had anything with a girl ever and i'm ready to change that, but i find myself at an extreme loss.

to start, i have an extremely low to ZERO SMV.

i didn't exactly win the genetic lottery, and everybody in my life ever always took the chance to remind me of it. I spent almost a decade in isolation to cope with how shitty my life got in school.

to sum it up, as much as i'm currently lifting:

  • im bald at 19 (kind of tragic)
  • im 5'8
  • my body is crooked and i weight 134 lbs
  • i am very asymmetric in both face and body
  • extremely low social skills due to isolation
  • very low confidence, borderline social anxiety
  • currently addicted to porn but im changing it
  • no real direction or sense of self

to say that im in a huge SMV and honestly LIFE debt would be an understatement. I need help.

The only redeeming factor is that i was born in a very very wealthy family, so i usually stand out due to my clothing being prestigious but i also usually look out of place because of the ultra flashyness.

Guys, please help me. The struggle is killing me and im falling in a pit of body dysmorphic depression.

(only thing keeping me alive is that im currently lifting using Anthony Ellis' program)