I overanalyze everything. After each of my sexual encounters, I go through everything in my head again to make sure that my fucking penis wasn't exposed to any of her fluids at any point.

I've improved a lot of things in my life in the last couple of years and have improved from a sexless virgin to someone who can get new, decent (atleast HB5) pussy every month or two.

This post, however, is about the first ever HB8 I picked up on the weekend. She was fairly snobbish at the beginning but I managed to fuck her after a couple of hours. I've gotten much better at game over time (outcome independence and non-neediness being the key concepts).

While fucking her, the condom broke but I discovered this only after five minutes. She told me she was clean and I have no reason to doubt her but she could be misinformed. The crucial point is that I can't confirm whether she is clean or not.

I've been worried for the last couple of days. The only solution is post-exposure prophylaxis (PEP) which is basically medicine that can reduce HIV risk. It's expensive (1500 USD) but I need to buy it.

I want to ask if fucking more women isn't the right option for every guy (especially if it causes stress and anxiety). Won't a better option be to find a low count woman, get her and yourself tested, and then make sure you stick to a monogamous relationship? I know there aren't any guarantees about whether she decides to fuck someone behind your back but it's still better than fucking someone from the club or the bar.

Some might say that the only way to get better at finding quality women is to fuck more women but what if that journey leads to an STD before you find that final quality woman you are satisfied with? And for those who advocate never settling down, isn't that the same thing as playing roulette your entire life and hoping that you never lose?

Before this encounter, I had finally started to feel confident about women. But I wonder if all that time I invested in getting better is wasted if I decide to drastically reduce sex considering the anxiety I get about STDs. I know even innocent-looking women have high n-counts so it's hard to think of an actual solution. Sex and health are both human needs but it seems like they are at odds now.