I'm not here to bitch. I'm not here for sympathy. I am here to not only share my experience but seek advice from those who can not only rationalize, but help explain (via their own experience) the swallowing of the red pill.

I suffered (and quite frankly still suffer, however it is fading) from a serious case of Oneitis. My recent breakup has allowed me to realize so many things. The failure of my LTR was not only her fault but my own. I am not condoning her ridiculous behavior (going into it is irrelevant, because AWALT). But I was weak, emotional, and beta; continuously throughout my LTR. I do not hate, or blame her for her actions because once again, AWALT. I am trying to accept women's natural nature, their solipsism and hypergamy. Its fucking difficult. Why? Because I am victim of seeing the best in everyone, regardless of gender, though I think it is more attributed to myself seeking the love of my mother I never received, the kind of love i convinced myself I needed/wanted but she was never able to provide. I cant tell if this is a result of the new age feminism manufacturing of men, or that I am in denial and refuse to accept that there are no good people, only varying degrees of evil.

I'm here seeking the help, stories, and explanations of those who have successfully swallowed the red pill. How did you do it? What techniques did you employ? I realize there are posts and posts of examples of what and how they did it. But what I want is other men who read this and relate directly.

Thank you for your time, and thank you to TRP for allowing me the opportunity to better myself, and only myself.

TL;DR: Struggles swallowing TRP, how did you do it? What techniques did you employ? What is YOUR story?