The more i see how far i am from being an attractive male. Ive been making every kind of a mistake there is and I am having a nervous breakdown over this. My whole life I was doing everything wrong which obviously made me unusuccessful and extremely lonely and now I have to somewhat fix it all. It is extremely overwhelming, it really feels so bad that i am starting getting suicidal thoughts, like i wasted so much to get nothing and now i have to start over. I thought i was better than this, clearly not