I have Moobs. Currently they look like airless flappies. If you imagine the eyes of the stingray as my nipples, then it's wings are my moobs.

Current Body fat 25%. My moobs are not gyno, it's mostly body fat from childhood obesity. My face looks good according to me. A lot like face of aussie actor Russell Crowe.

I am lifting 7 days a week. My body is getting to look more and more shaped. Muscles underneath the fat are giving it shape.

 

Here is my problem

 

I never had sex. I never dated. I am repulsed of the idea of physically having sex.

I don't like the physicality of sex. I don't want some stranger girl's ewww breath and yuck fluids on me. She might have rode a lot of cocks, sucked so many cocks, licked so many man scrotums. She herself may stink, of her natural sweat and secretions. Then there is the chance of getting an STD like HPV just by kissing her or having skin contact. More serious STDs like Gonorrhea, Chlamydia scare me even more.

 

1. How do you guys deal with the thought and risk of diseases ?

 

2. How do you guys deal with where she has been, the many different cocks she tastes and then kisses you with the same mouth that tasted another man's cock ? Her vagina has been used by God knows how many men, without condom. How can you be ok with that ? You are not observing your woman 100% of the time and AWALT, implies she can suck anyone's cock and kiss you with the same mouth. Then the idea of plates and one night stands adds more power to these thoughts

 

3. How do you know the girl you are interested in fucking has no STDs ? You cannot ask her to show you an STD free certificate before a one night stand. Can you ? What if you get an STD that spreads by touch of skin or kissing ? At the Night Club, she could have sucked a Diseased Chad's cock bareback in the restroom and come back to you to serve some of Chad's leftovers with your tongue. That does not sound fun at all

 

I never said I don't like the idea of sex. I have skype and webcam sex with cam girls. That does not feel eww and icky. So I have been having webcam sex exclusively for the past 10 years. I enjoyed the experience but money runs out pretty fast.

I am not afraid nor anxious around females. I am becoming an Alpha/TRP, I lift everyday. Mostly squats to increase testosterone. I also take testosterone enhancing supplements. I feel generally good about my manliness.

 

4 . I am not depressed. I do not feel a big lack in my life just because I had no dates, no real life sex or not losing my Virginity yet. How can I feel bad about not doing something I don't really want to ? Well society/current culture tells me to feel bad, Should I ?

 

I also do not feel an erection for casual relationship sex nor one night stands. I like to know a person and keep knowing her while I fuck her. The more I know and care about her, the more I get an erection and lose my inhibitions of real physical sex. But then TRP classifies that as Oneitis and "loving a woman" which are both taboos, not the least recommended for a TRP way of life. So you cannot love a woman because TRP but as a man you should have real physical sex. My cock/erection is confused like What is this I don't even

 

Currently I am working on increasing my muscles and removing my moobs, so I feel like a complete man bodywise. Then I can walk shirtless on the beach and attract women to touch me up. But then there is that ick factor in the back of my head, saying NO, don't touch these impure women to me. And then I agree with it because diseases.

 

5. You have any ideas on how I should improve my thinking, so that I feel motivated to go get real life sex ?