Alright so this will be quite a long post but I hope it sheds light or helps any way possible.

So I'll go ahead and start from the beginning :

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Up until 7 months ago, and most of my time growing up I was harassed, or bullied either because of my physical appearance, or the way I acted.. You know how kids are. Some of you have dealt with this. I've had ADHD, pretty bad anxeity, all the fun stuff that comes along with that. No self diagnose bs either, all from docotors and specialists. In speech classes all my life, IEP's, ect. (If you know you know) and serious weight issues I grew up being told constantly that I was a ‘retard’ or that I was ‘fat’ or had ‘tits’ because of my weight. I had close to zero social skills, managed to push away anyone in my life who is good for me. I watched porn all day, never Exercised, had ZERO goals or ambitions in my life, never did anything for myself, or even knew who I was as my own existence. Kept that up for years on end.

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Flash Forward to seven months ago, I'm sitting at 20 years old, 200 lb, no friends, one girlfriend of my whole life, addicted to porn with no job. Met this girl, we kicked it off pretty well, it went on for a couple of months until got chlamydia from her, she had been f****** other dudes behind my back and was lying to my face about everything. Now keep in mind she was that girl you wouldn’t show your friends if you guys catch my drift, Definitely not one to brag about having sex with. She was boring, had a bad temper, treated me poorly, and overall cost much more drama and stress in my life. I hated myself and hated being with her, getting a STD on-top of that and knowing other dudes had been going at it while I’m laying in bed with her disgusted me and made me feel betrayed. (don't worry it's curable I took some meds for it)

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I felt tricked, I felt deceived, and I felt like no woman in my life had ever have respect for me or giving me a fair shot and chance that I deserve, as some of you man here feel. I felt like a loser and a pu**y That someone (who I thought in my head) Should have been grateful to be with me, instead saw me as a piece of trash that she could manipulate and play like an instrument. I was so angry and it was the first time in a long time that I had been in a relationship (3 years). I hate it how I saw and I wanted out, but I didn't know where to begin.

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I started on Reddit, and found this board along with Men's Health and the couple other pick up Improvement dreads. I sifted through everything I could and decided what was bullshit and what would actually benefit me. About height, complaining about attractiveness, that somehow they all has SOME UNIQUE problem that they only had and that The whole world was against them.

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Well guess what, it's not and that couldn't be farther from the truth. The reality is you have to fight and EARN your keep. I want to hear the excuses I don't care if you're a 6’3 BBC lightskin D1 athlete with a trustfund + curly hair and a horse cock or a 5’2 300 pound virgin living in his moms basement. Bitching and complaining are the Achilles heel of our men's self improvement. Instead of whining and complaining (which I had done for years and never worked) I got off my ass, went to Barnes & Noble, picked up the following books (which are also on apple book store and amazon) :

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The forward Male Mike Mehlman

Models Mark Manson

The subtle art of not giving a fuck mark Manson

The way of a superior man David Deida

No more mr nice guy Dr. Robert a glover.

All in done a tad over a $60 investment. And hell no I'm not saying this for them. I though self help books were a joke and BS when I heard about it. Swallowed my pride and moved on. First I read cover to cover, then flashcards, then highlighting what stood out to me, then book marking, and repeat. I spent over three weeks reading cover to cover three times per book. Each time something clicked, something new happened, I learned and understand something in a different way. Very quickly my ‘issues’ and ‘problems’ were not at the fault of others, but instead had much to do with me than anyone else.

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For example, “she’s stuck up and turned my down because I’m too fat or don't look like a body builder” … turned into, “well I wouldn't want to be with a slob who cant take care for herself so why should she”..

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For the first time in my life I stopped making excuses and just fucking did it. I’m not happy with the money I have in the bank account? Then pick up more hours.

Not happy with my body? Stop eating fast food everyday and focus on my health.

Don’t like anxiety and can’t talk to women even if my life depended on it? See a specialist, get my shit figured out and go for it.

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You're saying some people and doing all the above with the books, I made myself a game plan. It was hard as hell but I stuck to it and never gave up because I was never going back to my old life. I hated myself and I hated the way I lived up until this point. I made it my goal to approach and talk to 15 different woman every single week, whether she was old, fat, in a wheelchair, absolute bombshell, did not matter. What mattered was the social skill experience and being comfortable in my own skin. Confidence is key here guys.

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SO the important details now: I started running every day, stopped eating bad foods, took care of myself, 6+ hours of sleep per day, ZERO PORN, got clothes that fit my body correctly, and PUT MY CAREER AND MYSELF FIRST. No more beta simp bullshit, me first and making sure I’m taken care of first.

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I’m not going to give you a to do list and step by step, but I’ll tell you how my day today looked like (and this isn’t out of the usual)

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Studied at the local Coffee bar, met 7 different groups of Women throughout the day today (11AM-4PM), got three numbers and a snapchat (I never ask for snaps but this time was different), solid date set up for next weekend with this absolute hottie (Brunette, 5’3-5’4, fit body, funny, honest and genuine from my first impressions). Got all of my HW done, opened escrow on one of my land deals and have 3,600 coming into my bank account on the side in 14 days when it closes.

And since it may matter to some, let's talk about sex. I've slept with 12 different women since March. I don't care if you call me a liar. I don't care if you think I'm flexing or lying. It's the truth. Losing weight PHYSICALLY has changed my appearance, 6 pack abs, jawline, broad shoulders, ect. I get treated so much differently and feel good about myself, but confident also when approaching women. I feel likeI'm on fire, it's an addictive and rewarding feeling to get women who before I never had a chance with and to be banging them the next. And not i'm not a 'chad' either, I have respect for these girls and treat them as such. It's so worth it guys trust me it takes time but you will NOT regret it. AND NO THE GIRLS AREN'T NASTY THEY ARE SOLID 8's+ and above, the kind you'd tell your friends about. I've gotten with my moms friend, lady who checks your blood pressure at the doctors, multiple baristas, approached by married woman, ect. Again you can say I'm flexing or lying and that's OK. If you think I am then you're allowed to, but I'm not bluffing in any way.

Socially I have groups fo girls I hang with, I snapchat girl group chats, beach dates, hookups, you name it life is great for me now. I'm telling you I went from Porn to having 2-3 girls some nights text ME and as ME if I wanted to to x, y, or z with them solo or their friends. I'm being chased and I can call the shots instead of jacking off being a simp.

As of right now I'm feeling pretty good and it's only getting better. focusing on my career has had me make more money and have more in the bank than I'm used to. I stopped giving a shit and putting females at the center of my universe and I'm much happier. I have sex much more often now. I've lost 40 pounds in 7 months. I no longer live at home with my mom, I have my own place, I call the shots, and I rule my own life.

At no given time are 'girls' or 'pussy' on my radar, who I am as a man and my goals and ambitions come first. I have slowly learned to respect myself more and what I want I deserve and can get if I work for it. There's no easy magic way or tricks, what determines your success is determination for better and how much you will want to sacrifice to earn it.

As you can tell English is not my strong point when it comes to writing, forgive me. I hope you all get something out of this and if you got anything to say just dm me or leave a comment, gg boys

-spookydaddy666