Was probably overthinking too much yesterday before I went to this house party, but I was in my head telling myself to get hyped up cos I was gonna enjoy this place and have the best time there. Also had in my head to be very alpha with other males and more kino-ey with females.

The start was sweet as f***, got there, saw the girl I planned on hitting on, gave her a hug on intro then about 5 mins later, put my arm around her and said 'you're the best looking girl I've seen in the last 24 hours', she said 'thanks, that's a compliment!' -(okay clearly I'm hitting on her, why did she have to clarify this? - that confused me a lot as she also told my friends and her friends I did this and I can't understand why) but she was being very receptive to my flirtations. I then asked her if she was still going out with her boyfriend and she said that she was. I proceeded as usual and then started talking to other girls.

I found myself then starting to become very beta. I dunno if this is because I started getting more drunk, but I was starting to talk to lots of girls in a flirty way but get blanket rejections from them (most of the girls there knew me and I'd never hit on them before due to pre-seddit naivete). I found myself in the circle of close friends most of the time and rarely leaving it.

What annoys me the most is I was so hyped up, so alpha, so ready to complete the objectives I had in mind, but my mind turned beta because, well I don't even know why.

Also I'm still a little confused on what the first bit meant, why would a girl react like that?