For starters, I apologize if I'm all over the place but I have a lot to get off my chest, Secondly all advice is appreciated.

So currently I'm a senior in high-school who' spent way too much time trying to figure out the way to attract someone to your natural self. I've read books like The Game and Mystery Method all the way up to more current ones. My goal originally always has been to attract a girl, connect well, hold a healthy relationship, experience intimacy, and ultimately have good passionate sex with her. (I know that's a long shot in High School) But here I am 4 years later having experienced nothing as much as a single hug. Recently the idea of losing my virginity has become more apparent since I've been talking about it with my friends (Who are both boys and girls) and how they've had it. The topic always seems to end with everyone wondering how i'm still a virgin and the guys harassing me for it a bit. Yes I've had my chances to lose it to twice but I couldn't find myself to overcome my anxiety and insecurity to actually go through with flings like that. I've never really managed to attract anyone I've ever wanted even though it's entirely possible. I've never found talking to girls a problem nor making my intentions clear with them, I've just never been fortunate enough to escalate to a date. So for right now I've hit a dead end, I don't know what to do about my virginity and honestly it feels like losing it is miles away. Feel free to ask any more questions I'll reply the best I can