I've been a lurker here for about a year, over this time I've improved myself tremendously, from having had no experience with any girls, I have been with two. The other night, during a dry spell I saw one of them, we made out. On my back home I questioned why I drove half an hour to see her - it was satisfying, but it wasn't that great. Later at a gym session, I saw myself in the mirror, seeing all the muscle I packed on in the last year and asked "what is it all for?" I'm still struggling to come up with a genuine reason. My original desire for joining this community was out of desperation, and longing for a relationship and human connection. Having experienced both a casual and meaningful encounters, I struggle to see the point in going out anymore and meeting others. Does anyone else feel like this?