Hey guys,

throwaway account because I don't feel like I want to share it on my main acc (too many friends know my main account).

So I've had sex with 20+ girls, few of them were short-time relationships and once I was in long-time-relationship (one year long).

Over the course of all those years and girls, I always tried to find new emotions, new stuff to stimulate me - I've always used seduction as a way to improve myself and to experience more.

Now, in this year alone, I've dated 5 girls. 4 of them had sex with me on first date and I immediately lost interest in them. 5th one had sex with me on second date and then, I lost interest in her too.

I started to wonder, why does this happen to me and what's wrong. And I came to the sad realization that currently I feel only two emotions in regards to girls - 1. Indifference (don't know if it's the right word, but basically I just don't care at all about them, I don't feel anything to them) and 2. I feel horny. What it means that I either want to fuck them or don't do anything with them at all.

And honestly, it's freaking me the fuck out. Because I love looking at girls and every time I'm partying, I will go and try pickup some girls, but as soon as I feel like I can have sex with any, I pull out because I don't want to hurt them in any way and I'd rather have them not liking me than thinking they have a chance for anything.

Has anybody experienced something similar?

Honestly, I don't identify myself as a jerk or experienced seducer or anything of that sort. I'm just a guy who knows how to deal with girls and reads them well. That's why it's bothering me, because I love women and I love to feel anything, but currently - I feel nothing.

On the other hand, maybe it's some kind of "shield" I developed in myself due to past experiences (not everything I did was pleasant, I got hurt more than few times)?