So...went out to lunch with some friends, as we unfortunately buried a mutual friend earlier in the day.

Long story short, my boy scored a date with the server, didn't say anything outside of requests and normal manners, just wrote his number on the check, she texted him a minute later and eventually she came back to chat with him before we left. This all happened right in front of the girl he's been getting with, didn't faze her one bit, she actually encouraged it. Irl proof that women not only don't mind sharing chad, they go out of their way to do so.

This should be a simple lesson on how easy it actually is...yet, my mood and sense of humour turned off like a switch, i feel extremely bitter and defeated over this stuff that ain't even any of my buissness, and a funeral just happened, petty complaints shouldn't even be in my head, maybe it's because I'm on a dry run and gaining options is very difficult with no current options, no social proof, I shouldn't feel like this, I ain't even new to the game. I just resent how the world works, I never hated the player, the game itself is a different story.

Thoughts on what to do to stop thinking like a weak little bitch??? This ain't me...

Update: last night went a bit better. The server brought her busty friend to play tonsil hockey with me, and I turned away some drunk mess for being over 29. I'm on my way back...