Ok. I'm not doing this for validation so please refrain from "Good Job" messages. I don't subscribe to any PUA school of thought, I really think all of them are rubbish.

I am very analytical in my thinking and you will see the entire pickup and how I think in the field report. I will try to give an analysis of how I think as well, I'm not claiming to be any good, not an expert in any way.

I have not gone out of the house for 2 months straight. All of my moves are based on logic and it has very little to do with state, it does a bit but my state is internally generated. I judge people and myself by actions, not state. The thing is you stop needing validation after 2 months of being alone. I think you will find great value in it because it goes against much of PUA school of thought. Anyway... the field report:

Agreed to meet at 8pm with the girl. Went to her place at 8pm... she's a no show... she's sleeping. Messaged her to call me when she wakes up. Went back home 9pm she wakes up and calls me I tell her that I'm turning back to meet her and that she has 1 hour to get ready. 10pm I reach, she's defensive, barely talks. I get her to my car, halfway through, she starts crying, 20 year old on vacation for 2 months, agrees to go on a date, and starts crying midway of the journey. So I got stumped, I told her I'm taking her back, she started to backpeddle and started asking where we are going. She's still defensive and weird but she trusts herself more with me now. We agree for coffee. I take her to my place. She lives 45 minutes away from me, I went back and forth three times now, drama, crying, defensiveness, every answer from her mouth is "nothing" and it's not that she's purposefully trying to be rude, she's just emotionally fragile and doesn't trust herself. Now I don't care, I've been locked up in the house for 7 weeks, I don't need anyone but me to be happy so for me it's funny. We're 5 minutes away from the house, she tells me I need to take her back because her brother will freak out. I started getting pissed. Till now, she's agreed to a date, she didn't bother to wake up, I go twice to her place, she cries on the way, I suggest to take her back, she declines and wants to stay, we're about to reach my place and she is asking me to take her back. I told her I'm done. I'm gonna put you in a cab and send you home. She's here on vacation and doesn't know the roads much so she starts to panic. I told her I'm going home, I'm having my coffee, she's free to wait in the common area if she doesn't want to come up. I'll have my coffee and then I'll take her back. So she goes up to my apartment. I know she's not doing this purposefully, she's just fragile, so I'm not really pissed at her, I'm pissed at her complete inability to make use a shred of logic and that she doesn't even have a bit of decency to apologize so I called her on it. Made some hot chocolate and told her let me drink this and we'll leave. While siting on the coach, I ask her to give me a hug, she tells me to come to her so I do it, I rest the back of my head on her torso, she starts playing with my hair. I move her and ask for a kiss, she starts blushing, gives me one, then another, then we start to make out, I put my hands under her pants and we go all the way. Then took her back to her place, bridge was blocked and I couldn't find a way to around it so we went back to my place, round 2 and slept, time was already like 3am. Couldn't sleep, she slept like a baby, 5am had to wake up, get dressed and drop her back home. I assured her I would talk to her brother and that whatever happens it is all on me so that she feels completely safe. Didn't end up having to talk to the brother, he was sleeping, not that I went back on my word.

Ok... for the breakdown. My maxim is "Ask for behavior, not love". That is how I fucked a girl that cried in the car, did not trust herself with anyone, all her answers were "nothing" and wanted to leave. All her actions stemmed from how she felt. I asked her to sleep with me, I didn't ask her to like me, so she slept with me.

The funny thing is people backwards rationalize. Once the girl sleeps with you, she has to rationalize her actions emotionally because otherwise she would be in conflict with herself. She goes "How can I sleep with a person I don't have feeling for?", the answer is "I can't" so the only conclusion she can come up with is that "I must have feelings for the guy"

We have super backwards circuitry in our brain and two different systems operate within us that want different things and that backwards rationalize each others actions. Basically the two systems are logical and emotional. To make you understand the distinction, a textbook has high logical value in the fact that it contains really valuable information that can assist in your career, make you more knowledgeable, even make you more money. However, it has low emotional value as textbooks are dry, boring, require effort and is hard, it is not pleasurable to study. Our goal in life is to look for logical value. The funny thing although studying is not enjoyable, once you study, your emotional brain rationalizes the it likes to study because the rule of the emotional brain is "If I don't like something, I don't do it." so it comes to the conclusion that it likes studying, same goes with women. On the dating platform, logic is behavior, emotion is degree of love. Behavior is controllable, emotion is not. You could be the best person in the world and I can still not like you because emotions don't have to make logical sense. Emotions by their very nature are uncontrollable, that is why you never ask for love, you only ask for behavior. This is getting a bit deep. Anyway... I have given enough details that you can understand the framework that I use. I do not claim to be an expert, I just like things to make sense to me and like to break down stuff. I am primarily preoccupied with my work and I don't spend time with friends. I'm mostly alone which suits me honestly. Bottom line... I pulled off a lay from a shitshow is because I didn't ask the girl to love me, I asked her to sleep with me and she did. I hope you got value out of it. Please refrain from "Good job" messages, I am not doing this for validation. My benefit is that I get to rehash my concepts to myself. Feel free to try to argue concepts or ask for more details on any part even unrelated to this specific field report. I get more clarity the more I discuss my model, if I can call it that. Thanks for reading.