Ok so I kind of want someone to explain my feelings.

So i had my first kiss like a few months ago but i remember how i felt during it and just wanna know why i felt that way yk. Education wise. So we were making out or wtv but for some reason i wasn't turned on I mean, like i kinda wish he did more but i told him it was my first time and stuff so mabye thats why he held back?? I didnt know him well BTW. But we were kissing and he just cupped my face like a lot dunno why... and like he barely touched my body?? I think when he started grabbing my ass a bit thats when I started actually getting turned on. BUT he barley did😭 like he only did that once. But then he tried to pull my shirt down but then i got pretty nervous ngl lmao. Oh we also stopped a few times cuz i was getting tired. Chat what does this meannn? 🧍‍♀️oh also i kinda cringe when i remember it 😭 (19F) (19M)