Good night everyone

Not sure its the right place

I've came out of a really long situation

Long story short. I'm 24, tall and good looking

I loved a girl since 12th grade, and only told her recently , After surgery to remove a tumour

She rejected me, It was a big shock and with the medications I took I became even more depressed and emotionally unstable She knows everything I've done and I sent her pics of my suicide attempt. Now I've finally managed to get rid of that stuff

I always get a bit of attention from girls, but I one.

Other girls just don't make me feel like she feels

I love her still

The time she had my blocked, gave time and purpose, to bury all off my wounds and old scars

It took 6 years, but I am almost 100 % healthy

Lots of stuff happened between us. I psychological sick and did sick stuff

I fought really hard,.to rid of the meds, rebuild my self esteem. I'm a better guy now

If I ever get a clean slate from her,.how do I do? How do I start?

Edit: chequed on my friends for me