I went out last night in downtown Charlotte. I went to a chill bar that had a dj. I talked with the barback for a little while it was slow. I went upstairs and did a couple of high fives. I approached two girls at the bar and we chatted for a little while. Asked if they were going to dance at some point. Approached another two girls at the bar (the third in their group was in the bathroom) and chatted with them as well. Later, went up to a table of 4, 5? women sitting down and high fived all of them. In general, I was just social with different people in the bar. Later, I talked to two of the women I high fived earlier. They were near the bathroom. They were definitely the friendliest and most receptive of the women I talked to.

Something happened as the evening progressed that stuck in my craw. A couple came in with their guy friend. Almost immediately, all three of the girls from the second group I chatted with were up and dancing with this guy. He was about my height, not really any better looking than me. (Yeah, I know, that shit matters less than most guys think) And he escalated physically immediately, touching their faces, twirling them, brushing hair back, just grabbing them all over really. And yes, they liked it (or appeared to). I asked him if he knew all these girls. He said, yes, that he did know them. I asked him how do you know girls like this (or something like that). He said just be a good guy and don't be a creep. Thanks for not sharing buddy, super helpful. Sure, I had a case of sour grapes. There was not really a way for me to break into this group. And I wasn't going to be a hoverer all night. I had been having a pretty good night, but then felt pretty defeated. Somehow, I often manage to snatch defeat from the jaws of victory. Which leads me to another issue...

An issue I've been having as I've gotten older is that I don't have any friends that are interested in going out and that are also halfway socially decent. How can I get or join a posse? This solo shit can get exhausting and in general, it doesn't look like I'm having as much fun as when out with friends. Even when I was younger and going out with guy friends, most of them were absolute shit with women as well, which is why I'm here in the first place.

The year is more than half over and I'm really hoping that I get some traction soon. I was really hoping this would be my "summer of George"