So... Last night was just another night. A few interesting things happened. I found myself falling right back into my old habbits of course...
First, a little backstory in what's been happening i my life.
I was living in this College Type apartment in New Brunswick, NJ, going out to the bars about 3-4 nights a week to work on my game.
I work as an IT guy with a really good salary. I recently moved out of my apartment, and I plan on taking out a mortgage and buying a condo in Jersey City. I heard many times, even experienced it personally, the difference between Seduction in New Brunswick and NYC. Maybe there is no difference, maybe it's all in my head and it's all about confidence... I do find that the women in this town are all about Status and confidence, where the women in NYC are all about everything, and are more open to meeting men...
Right now, I'm living back at my parents house in South Brunswick, while looking for a condo and working with the bank. And I drive to New Brunswick to go out...
Moving back home, has actually honestly been really therapeutic. When I originally moved out of my parents house, i had just begun studying Seduction. I was living in a false reality where my parents pampered and spoiled me, and I had no knowledge about the real world, the Matrix, and just how lucky and spoiled I really was. I left them and started the rebellious phase of my life. A lot of my mommy and daddy issues had come out, and I dealt with it all by seeing a psychologist, self medicating with kush, studying seduction and philosophy. After about two years and a complete rebuilding of my entire life, I have moved back home for the first time, temporarily. I feel less Egotistical and less needy for validation. And I've made a lot of peace with my parents since.
My plan on bringing a girl back if I happen to f-close, would be to plug the name of a hotel into my phone's gps, and just get a room if I do ever escalate with a woman that much... Seeing as my track record hasn't really been as consistent as the Elite members of Seduction, I doubt me being forced to get a room would be much of a hindrance... My own lack of confidence is likely a much bigger issue.
So, I went to the same bar I always goto. I stopped going to the College bars in the area, because I grew a beard and I don't think the college chicks would accept me or feel like I'm young enough. I'm 28. I don't disbelieve that I can f-close an 18 year old, but in these particular environments, I don't think I would stand out very well nor do very well...
Last night there were 3 groups or sets that I tried working with. There weren't too many people out.
One set was a group of asian friends, 4 girls and like 2 or 3 guys. They were all spaced out and not too much in each other's personal space, which read to me that some of them are likely single or not together.
Another set was this 1 really tall HB8.
And another set was this group of friends that hung out in the corner of the bar together. There was like 1 guy and maybe 6 HB9s... Yep, six of them. Not gonna lie, this group was really intimidating to me. I felt so nauseous thinking about approaching them with nothing to say...
So here we go. The bar was at a medium-high energy level. At the bar, they were doing Live Band Karaoke, where a band plays and you get up in front of the mic and sing a song with them. I sang the following 3 songs throughout the night...
Motley Crue - Kickstart My Heart
A-Ha - Take On Me
Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
and I killed it each time. Each time I sang the songs, all the guys gave me high fives and I was obviously one of the most recognized people there...
Not having as many mommy and daddy issues, being able to really let go more of the past and all the people that I feel have hurt me, all the victimization I've made up, all the bullshit problems I've made up in my head, led me to have a very unique night. I had felt more free than ever before... Then again, I always say that... I guess, each time you go out and dance because you want to, it just get easier. Personally, I felt much less anxiety and just the want to have fun...
I didn't drink at all either. I smoked a little before, so that may have affected my confidence.
For the set of Asians, I just danced nearby them. I had a blast with the music, and just let the music flow through me. I would throw value to the ladies. When I saw the men look at me, I immediately jumped to them and threw them value. I tried to really stimulate the guys and get them to not give a shit "with me"... And it was working, I was unstiffling them.
They were all laughing, smiling at me, and even dancing a little with me. I knew that if I win over the guys, the girls will be much more open. I approached all of them and said, "Hey, I'm Alex." I got their names, but nothing really surfaced.
A: Are you guys singing tonight?
M: No no. He is though, he's got a great voice.
M2: No no, don't listen to him. It's actually a good thing I'm not singing, I have a horrible voice.
A: Oh come on guys! I'm sure you're amazing! all you gotta do is have fun and not give a shit!
They both smiled at me.
M: That's true.
I walk up to the three Asian girls in front of me.
A: Are you guys singing tonight?
They all said no, but were smiling at me.
A: Oh, well you guys should come sing with me!
W: You're singing tonight?
A: Oh yea. You'll know, trust me. You'll know. You wont be able to miss it.
They laughed, but didn't respond too much. There was music playing and I guess having a conversation was more difficult, who knows, maybe I'm wrong...
I didn't see it going anywhere so I moved on.
I approached the HB9s. To do this, I tried a little maneuvering and strategy. I saw two guys, who weren't with them, standing nearby, enjoying the music but not really in state.
I approached these guys, start dancing with them, giving them value, energy, making them smile. I conversed with them a little bit, complimented them, made them laugh, and in the end they had their arms around me telling me I'm the shit... If only I can do that to women...
I was doing this with the two guys in front of this group to build some social proof. I hung out with them for a few minutes. I looked over to the group of pretty girls. I had nothing to say. The first thing I did was approach the hottest one, the blonde. It was probably the stupidest shit I've ever done, but at least I got it out of my system...
A: I've seen you here before.
W: This is my first time here.
A: Really!? I could've sworn I've seen you before. Oh well, all you blondes look alike.
She laughed almost embarassingly.
A: I'm just kidding. You're beautiful!
Then I jumped back to my two buddies and went back to dancing. I was really out of state with them and my heart was racing to be talking to so many pretty girls at once...
I danced around some more for a few minutes. Then I look back to those girls, and I jump towards one of the ones at the side. These two brunettes, HB9s...
I literally hopped over to them, and tried sending them value. They wouldn't look at me, even when I was acting like a complete ass.
Then I remember Owen from The Blueprint "making funny faces" as an opener. So I immediately started doing that. I started making a silly face while waving and staring at them from about 3 feet away.
They started smiling, then the blonde jumped in almost to distract me from them. I know this may sound like she was trying to get my attention, but I doubt it. I think she did that to get me to stop annoying or creeping her friends...
W: That's definately cool. That's cool.
Not sure what she was talking about. She said that while smiling at me... Idk, I'm still not convinced she was at all attracted to me.
I interpreted this as a shit-test or her trying to burst my bubble of fun or w/e. I see the guy in the group. I had the same idea as before, befriend him. So I hopped over to him.
A: Hey man. I'm Alex, what's your name?
I put out my hand. He shook his head.
B: No.
I put my hand down.
A: No?
B: No.
A: So... you don't have a name.
B: Nope.
A: That's pretty amazing, how did you get by all these years without a name?
B: Yea you know, it's tough, I just kinda have been under the radar.
A: Oh wow. I see you got a drink in your hand. How did you get that without a name or ID? Do you know the people that work here?
B: No, I just kinda brought this with me.
A: Ooooh. Is this supposed to be some kinda joke?
B: Well...
A: Because it's not a funny joke.
I just kept a straight face on here and looked him dead in the eyes. I never flinched. He looked nervous and couldn't look me in the eyes. He started saying nothing. Then the blonde chimes in.
W: Mark is a very funny guy.
She said this in a supportive context, almost as if she felt bad for him. I wanted to embarass him because he was being a dick.
Then I just say, "Oh my god" and I walk away, immediately back to those two guys and show everyone that I'm having a kick ass time, without those fucks.
Next comes the tall HB8. She saw me having fun on the dance floor and was giving me IOIs...
I danced with her, and coincidentally she ended up dancing with me right in front, like 3 feet away from the group of HB9s... I felt pretty awesome about this. I felt like I was presenting social proof to chicks that... didn't like me to begin with. An Ego based mindset, sure... I was really upset, because this shit always happens to me. I don't know who the HB9s and HB10s are always fucking, because it's not me...
I had these two HB5s following me around all night, trying to dance and grind with me... It's always the really unattractive girls I find that persue me... Almost never the pretty girls. Makes me feel ugly... W/e... I danced with them, gave them good vibes. I spun one of them around like 3 times, in front of those HB9s, and then I yelled out in a funny voice, "Round and round and round." It was amusing to my at least...
And that's basically it. Sure I had a load of fun with less mommy issues... I'm still lacking in consistency... I mean let's face it... If wanted those HB5s, I could've probably maybe had them... I didn't want them. I don't study all this shit and spend my time on any of this stuff to get an HB5...
The Asians left shortly after I greeted them.
The HB8 that I danced with, after talking to her, she told me that she came with her boyfriend, who she has been with since before she got married, and is still married... And also is still with her boyfriend... And the boyfriend was there, and he told me that he doesn't care if I dance with her and have fun, but that's it. So I did. I danced with her, had fun with her, and enjoyed her pleasant company... It was more pleasant than those fucking HB9s who couldn't even acknowledge my existence... Who knows, maybe I bailed on them too soon or pussied out because their male friend's disapproval in me really got to me. I didn't feel like I could have success in their group with the male disliking me from the start... I didn't approach them again all night. I approached them twice and I felt like that was enough of a shot...
TL/DR Came out with tremendously less anxiety. Approached every set I found myself attracted to. Was a total Ass all night, made people feel better about themselves, danced and had fun, went home all lonely...
Things I Did Well
I approached every set, even the ones I thought were pure death...
I used some knowledge from Magic Bullets in befriending all the men, building social status, social proof, taking up space
I danced with a bunch of girls
All the dudes loved me, except for one...
Didn't let the HB9s rejection get to me too much
Things I Did Poorly
Bounced out of the HB9 set too soon. Why not stay and let it get awkward if it must...
I negged the guy who disapproved of me, and left right after the blonde said his name outloud, trying to ease the tension...
I assumed that the HB9s were all creeped out by me and didn't want to have anything to do with me...
Felt kinda pissed off going home alone... again...
Things I want to Improve On
Not bailing out until things get really really awkward...
Not getting butt hurt by some stiffled dick.
Chilling out more, and just approaching calmly without hopping to them...
Understanding wtf is even going on as I'm still harshly oblivious to the moment and what signals they're really giving off, and what shit I make up in my head...
Being able to recall more of The Blueprint while I'm in the field so I don't get all Egotistical and fucking stupid as hell...
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