So i went out Tuesday night. I didn't know what was happening in my city so I just went to a bar I knew that hosted Karaoke.

My goal was to just reach the indifference threshold quickly. If I could completely unstiffle myself, my night would be complete.

On the way to the bar, I stopped me and my PUA buddy. I decided to try out some of the games Owen talks about in The Blueprint, to quickly unstiffle yourself.

We did the imitation game. My buddy was a little shy and couldn't really "explode" out of his shell... Personally, I did give a shit as well, but I gave more shits about going out to get myself to "not give a shit"... I wanted success no matter what.

We gave each other animals to imitate. When it was my turn, I would scream as loud as I could, being as loud as I could, trying to invade on other people's airspace.

When my buddy did it, he would only "do it to me", rather than to the world. As if he was holding back, and needing permission to unstiffle. We did that for a little while and I eventually started feeling a little more awake, with a little more energy...

I remembered Owen talking about how Objects that are not in motion, stay that way unless another force acts on it, that other force being "you"... And I could understand once again, that my outcomes from my approaches are all dependent on my current state... Whether or not I anticipate strangers to like me, whether or not I feel like I provide value in any conversation I'm in, and whether or not I'm using the logical or emotional side of my brain.

After that, we did the "Yes" game, where we would clap, and scream, "Yes!" together, and get louder and louder, to the point where we're just screaming and laughing...

And we did all of this in public... I purposely tried to go louder and louder, until I really stopped caring.

We arrived to the bar... It was kinda dead. We went to the very back of the bar, where there is an outside patio. I told my buddy that I want to play the unstiffling games again, in the bar, so that everyone could hear us... He obliged.

We began playing the imitation game again, and we started turning heads. I realized that if I came out alone, playing those games, with myself, would make me look REALLY crazy... I don't know if I could've done them alone. I definitely give a shit, at least a little...

Some girl from a group of mostly guys, turned to us. I jumped at the opportunity and asked her, "Can you do a better T-Rex?"

We had a short conversation about what we're doing, I amused myself and her, and then went back to my group.

There was another table nearby us, 2 women and 1 man. The girls were so cute, and I really wanted to approach... Yet I was again feeling this resistance. I started thinking about what opener to use. I began talking about it out loud to my PUA buddy. He interrupted me and said, "dude, why don't you just say, 'Hey, I'm Alex'".

I told him that I didn't want to use that line, because I never know where to take it from there. Sometimes when I use that line, it just ends up being blank space, and no one wants to respond to me.

He told me that, what I'm saying is BS... Sometimes that line does work for me, but I guess I was facing fear of rejection... As I stood there, with resistance building up, I also thought about the previous nights where I simply chickened out and went home upset at myself, only to go back to looking at more material as if I'm just "not ready"... I thought, "I can't do this anymore. How many more am I gonna keep passing? How many more nights am I going to waste? Just do it!"

So I did...

I remembered an approach Owen said in the Blueprint, that you could go up to a woman and say, "Which do you like better... Chicken or Fish?" ... So, fuck it... I used the most random opener, something that shows no interest at all, other than to Vibe...

I can explain how the conversation went word for word, but it was honestly pretty poor. They didn't answer me at first, and there was this awkward essence in the air... I directed my question again, but to one of the girls. She answered that she's a vegetarian.

I asked the guy the same question, he just stated, "chicken." The tension in the air, was really getting to me. I could "cold read" on their faces, that they felt like I had interrupted them, to take value or something... It got quiet really fast, and I just sorta turned around and went back to my little table.

My buddy had been watching my humiliating approach, and at least to my benefit when I came back, he gave me a high-5 and said, "Now, how many guys do you know, that can do that!?"

I stated, "Not many, almost none."

He replied, "That's right!"

It did feel a little better haha.

After that, we talked to the first group a little more. I quickly understood that the girl I spoke to before had a boyfriend who was in that group. So I made it my goal, to just establish as much value in this group as possible, just because... And I did, and they honestly really enjoyed our company and remembered us.

There wasn't any other women to approach in the bar that night. I saw a bunch of friends from my neighborhood hanging out. I said hi to them, and left the bar at around 1am.

I get home, and one of my roomies friends are over. He's talking about how another bar that night, was packed... Pssh, was at the wrong place...

Things I did well: * Played the State-Building games well.

  • Approached in the face of fear

  • Used a crazy line/Opener that I never have before

  • Was sober

  • Didn't let the rejection ruin my night

  • Started to enjoy the State games and begin to want to have "fun"

  • Did the 3-second rule, except it was more like a 15-second rule...

Things I did poorly: * I could've bounced to other bars, even though my PUA buddy didn't want to. If I wanted to approach more women, I had the opportunity.

  • Wasn't being in the moment enough, thinking too much

  • Didn't approach with Positive Anticipated Responses

  • Didn't approach, thinking that "people" will like "me"

  • Didn't feel like I have natural value

Things I want to improve on: * Stop thinking about what to say... The words will come, the manual will be given to you.

  • Be more in the moment, in the Now.

  • Approach MORE!

  • Reach/Breakthrough the indifference Threshold

TLDR: Went out, got myself into mild state, or higher state. Slowly getting myself back into approaching women all the time. Got rejected, had a slow night, and I saw how much I still suck. I should do the 100 approach challenge.