Okay so yesterday i see a cute asian girl. So I walk up to her and tell her I think she is pretty, she beams a smile back at me and we talk for a bit. very mild kino with my hand on her shoulder... we exchanged contact info and over text decided we would meed the next day (today) for lunch. She said she would bring a friend, so I said thats fine. Since she is off the boat and new here i let the friend thing slide.

So I meet her today for lunch with her friend. She was pretty shy the whole time, but that was okay because I was trying to focus more on her friend to do the whole jealousy thing. Me and the friend start talking and she starts speaking all these riddles and asking me questions about sex and stuff which I was having a great time with. then I move back to my target and start flirting with her again. I asked them what do they think about me so far?(in a joking manner) they both say so far so good, and my target says im cute and nice (not the best words, but i overlooked it due to language gaps). we all engage in normal talk and I start asking the target more personal questions, she refused to answer and just blushed.

(kino has been happening at this point, I grabbed her hand a few times while talking to her and held it for a few seconds at a time [more would have happened but we were kind of far apart])

felt like everything was going pretty well at this point. so I ask my target if i can see her on tuesday 7:30 after her class (I already knew when she gets out because thats when i met her yesterday). So.... she says 7:30 is late, so I said to her friend, "do u think 7:30 is late?" and she replied with a "no way its not late at all." so I said to the target "you must not be that interested if you cant meet me at 7:30 for dinner" and her friend said "yeah, if you dont like him you shouldnt waste his time." i agreed then stared at her... "what do u think?" i said.... she replied with "you are cute and a good guy, but I want an asian boyfriend."

I got up, said sorry if i wasted your time but u wasted mine. said goodbye to her friend, gave the target deuces and dipped.

...... i dont care that it didnt work out with her, but i do care about the asian thing. I really am attracted to asian girls, i speak japanese and I am learning mandarin at the moment, so i would rather an asian girl (cant be born in america either) but I feel like all the chinese girls I have been on dates with, and from the info I get from friends is that they all want an asian boyfriend. what the fuck can i do now. I cant change my race, lmao. so fuck it. ill keep trying. i had a chinese girlfriend and a japanese girlfriend before. I can definitely do it again but i cant stand this "Im only into asian guys".. i mean I know it is hypocritical considering im the same way, but it is just discouraging and im just venting at this point so yeahhhh.

tldr: get over yourself and read it.

what i want: words of encouragement, criticism, ideas on how to get a mainland chinese girl

ps: I am moving to japan after three semesters, so i have this internal stuggle of whether or not i should even be dating... i just need a FWB. any idea on how to do that? im more of a daygamer, not a party goer

UPDATE: just got a girls number, going out for drinks on tuesday. first white girl i will be going out with in like 4 yrs I think. hopefully i dont fuck this one up