Over the past couple years my standard have been declining because I realised that I would have sex and all the things associated with it a lot more often.

Im 19, very (some might even say below) average in facial genetics. I do have good eyes, an average skull, but an hugely out of proportionate (large and a bit crooked) nose and kind of a small mouth but good lips. And a very above average body (1.83cm or 6ft/75kg or 165lbs/8%bodyfat)

The last girl I've had sex with had a below average face. Huge chin (results of an below average skull), literally almost no upper lip, eyes and nose werent that special either. Bodywise she was almost taller than me and very skinny. My chest was actually twice the size, they were the most underdeveloped breasts I have ever seen, I feel bad for writing this. But still, I remember that when she slept over, I would almost have a constant erection (The sensation of touch turns me on just as much as visual stimulation, and visual stimulation is REALLY powerfull in men). And she was REALLY good in bed. (Like she had to make up for her imperfections) This fwb relationship ended in kind of an unfortunate way and had to do with my own insecurities though...

Right now I am exchanging some snapchats with this girl who's 5 or 6 years older than me. Her face is not bad imo (a lot better than my previous sexual partner) but when one of my friends saw her in fb he told me that 'i dont understand why you want to hang out with girls that look like this' She is short (1.63cm/5'4) and I dont wanna say fat but kind of chubby (eventhough she lost like 15kg/33lbs in the last 3 years, she is still 65kg/143lbs I think) things are slowly heating up between us (its already kinda fucking hot imo, she really wants to meet up and I am sure also wants to have sex as soon as we can) but I am feeling a lot of resistance to actually meet up and enjoy the hell out of my time.

I know that having low standards are not good but why the fuck does it matter actually, the sex is good and sometimes I have huuuuge cravings for just kissing and cuddling and all that shit. Being alone with a girl who appreciates my precense while touching and kissing literally makes me feel like Im on drugs or something. I dont really care wether she is insanely beautiful or just average/below average. I've had sex with a 7.5/10 last year and it was actually not that great. She was just laying on her back and not iniating anything while also not responding to my communication, like she had always been doing this and her previous sexual counters where always just okay with this. I certainly didnt want to have sex with her after that experience because how in the right mind would you think its okay to simply IGNORE the most important thing in sex?

Anyway, what are your opinions on this?

(Note: I struggle with anxiety and I get medication soon. Im not sure if I am experiencing cognitive dissonance at this point)