Hey guys whats going on. Been following this reddit for at least 8 months now and in the past 8 months learning "game" I would say I've made a lot of growth as an individual despite the general lack of success. Going thru this journey has put some hair on my chest im not going to front lmao. I have a better understanding of who I am/want to be, what I like in people/the opposite sex, more comfortable being by myself and doing things alone, and just overall forced me to be a little bit better if I wanna actually get some pussy lmao.

But i gotta talk about the lack of success.

On the surface I believe i have more than enough to get women. Not ugly by any stretch of the imagination. Dress decently, well spoken/articulate, funny. Im generally well loved wherever I go. A flaw in my game is that i dont cold approach enough and maybe i fall back when i meet a bit of resistance. But overall i have the package to get the job done (pause).

The adversity has been getting to me though. At first I was happy to get rejected because at least I was trying and giving something a shot instead of just sitting around with my dick in my hands. I tasted success this summer with dancing with girls at parties, getting numbers/ig's, making out with a few of em. But the main goal was to have sex but it didnt happen. And I was okay!! I've been doing a decent job of just enjoying the process without being tied to an outcome. I would be sad as fuck but was at least glad i had the confidence to keep getting up and getting out there even if i failed the night before.

After the summer I became more aware of my ability to game so i just kept going. But as the months have passed its been REAL tough. I work around alot of females now and most of them love me and flirt alot. Had one of them lined up...went out with her and ended at her crib and all that (we didnt fuck cuz she felt sick from eating mcdonalds).After that the relationship deteriorated in one way or another and then at a party that all my coworkers went to she was making out with someone else from the job lmfaoooo. I just cut her off after that. Other chicks seeming to be into me then I see them pulling up to the party with someone else or getting taken home by a rando in the club. Also had a thing going on with my ex but then i realized she wasnt worth the headache at all and cut her off as well.

So like the past 2 months i've been getting kicked in the balls or the soul. I also dont masturbate or watch porn so no readily available relief. The shit i've been experiencing has been fucking up my other interactions i think. Im in this midway point where I have confidence but putting my ego/pride on the line constantly and not seeing the results I want shakes it. I've been pressing on despite how much it hurts sometimes but about putting less stock into gaming but social skills are really like a muscle and this is really like a lifestyle so i dont wanna give up the progress i've made.

So yeah guys any words of encouragement/vids/books/things i can get into regarding all this? Im essentially a blank book despite doing this for a few months now. I've tried to stay away from all the lingo and jargon cuz i dont want to bog my own mind down with concepts when in reality all im doing is just talking to other humans.

thanks for reading