INTRO: I have a long ass friendship in over 15 years. Her name is Quia. We knew each other when we were a kid. She was 3 years old and I was 4 years old at that time. As we growing and becoming a teenager, I really like her because she cute and we just spend a night from our house like every weekend. Now I’m 19 and she 18.

PRESENT: (6:00PM) One day when me and Quia was outside walking around the block, I was flirting her, kinoing her (friendly way), and making her laugh. After 20 mins of walking around, we was near my house and ready to go inside. Before we go inside my house, she give me a sign where she got her tongue out and looking directly at me. We got inside, taking off our shoes and make something to eat. (6:45PM) After for a while when I finished eating my food, she already on my bed using my laptop. I joined her. We were both laying down on my bed. She searched up the movies on Netflix and she found one. She pressed play and The movie started. After 5 mins passed, Now it’s the time to do kino escalation and my body was ready. But my mind was telling me “No it’s not time yet. She will reject you in a very harsh way and she will end friendship”. Basically, I hesitated not to kino her at all time and not to do kino escalation. Although Things get kinda awkward when I i’m trying too hard to touch her and she move away from me like a personal space. After 15 mins passed, she make a excuse where she said to me she tired and I will go to sleep at a another room. She got up and processed to go to another room.

CONCLUSION: I realize my mind make me hesitated when it come down to kino escalation her. Because i’m scared to lose her and lose friendship. I highly think I need to stop being mr.nice guy. What should I do? Should I stop being nice and actually don't give a fuck or something else?