I finished High school at the bottom of the barrel when it came to connections. I have past me and my ex to thank for that.

You never really value the tools school gives you until you look back at it and realize you've wasted them all and got nothing.

So High School was finished and the only person that was still in my life was my ex. After that was done and over with(gladly), I was left alone.

I've noticed I have a lot of issues making friends because well... for lack of a better word I'm a dick.

The only thing I really have atm is my crew of all female coworkers in their 20s. That might sound great but I mean... honestly they're all stacked with a social life of their own.

That's a huge problem I always have, I'll always feel like an outsider if I try to integrate myself into a group. People have their own in jokes, their own special little connections and quirks with each other. I'm always feeling left out because of that.

But that's always been the story for me, no matter who I was with I was always an outsider of sorts. Never really fit in. Being a jerk doesn't quite help, though it does give me laughs... only me.

I won't say my coworkers dislike me or like me. Because I think it's much more valuable to look at people and say "they don't give a shit either way." It's probably far truer too. Let's be real, people don't really care. That's why I consider birthdays the "Oh

I do suppose that's a reason as to why I told one of my coworkers her teeth looked weird and she was fat. Honestly speaking she's quite attractive but I said it anyway because... well... it gives me a chuckle.

So I can freely do it and know that no one's losing sleep over it.

I'm quite a... character.

I love people... I just like to fuck with 'em. And I can be very nice and considerate. Usually damage has to be done though. Simply put if a person isn't visibly demonstrating some sort of negative attitude, emotion or state I treat them as if they're just fine. They're fair game to tease and borderline mock.

So how does one actually begin to build.

I am really pretty much building from nothing.

There's very little to work with here.

Help me out, brosephs. If you care to anyway.