This is the whole story about my "Oneitis"(P.S English is my third language so sorry for grammatical errors): Being in Pickup for less than a year and the reason why i joined was a girl I had a crush on but didn't knew what to do. After doing my first cold approach( which I would never forget) I felt a little confident in myself and approached the girl I had a crush on. best Part was when she blushed. But, things didn't work out. after a tough summer break i returned to college as a sophomore and decided to join a frat and meet more women. ( this is where the BS starts) My First Frat party was amazing. I made out for the first time, surprisingly I made out with another women that same night. Now the girl i have a crush on( Not the one mentioned above) saw this and I was pretty sure she felt attracted. I actually opened her and her friends and got a positive response from them. Then I walked them back to their dorm. I didn't make a move nor exchange contact info. next day she is pivoting towards me like crazy and it felt good but i acted like i didnt care. then comes another party, but this one is boring; too few people and not alot going on. this girl comes up to me and says " I remember walking back with you", we had a decent convo that ended like this: G: blah ME: So, you stalking me now huh G (sarcastically): I love you ME:Awwwww Give me hug G: rejects Me leaves Now, here is the twist after a couple weeks I was working at my college and her friends walk by, She drops her dishes in front of me and her friends start giggling and I felt something else is up(She liked me; confirmed by her suitmate) Didn't talk to her cause I had a downward momentum for weeks ( rejections, rejections , rejections) Then after Three months I was eating at Dining after day drinking she walks by and gives me a toast( raises her glass): my drunk ass either acted like i don't know her or winked at her. Now its the summer and being working full time. last semester was so shitty I lost my scholarship and my frat membership. Feel like a loser tbh. And this thing keeps playing in my mind; what if I did something else or what if someone I hate fucks her? and many more beta thoughts. I want to get over her(she is like the 6th girl I cold approached) but can't. I guess time will help.