I played a little and after that i decided that the only joy i feel is physical, i don't feel any joy inside, i feel hollow when im with a girl that i only like physically. I asked my friends who have a succesfull relationship what they did to get it, they said that they didn't try to find anyone, they lived for themselves and they SO just happened like out of nowhere. So i decided to set my mind on full "i don't need anyone, i can live alone and i will be happy", but the thing is when i do it, deep in my mind i understand that i do it not for myself, but to find someone, and because of that its a lil bit painful to realise that im still alone and i cant live on my own. So guys and girls, can you please tell how (and even should i) to became self sufficient mentally-wise? How to start enjoyin my life and not just goin out and have a couple of hook ups? Sorry for bad english, im from russia