I always feel like one. I feel like im not capable of anything and i dont deserve anything.

My depression makes me feel like people never ever value me or like me and they hate me.

I try hard to make people laugh so they like me. I want to have friends. But i feel like im very passive aggressive and say mean things to them. Because i want them feel the same way i do... So selfish i know.

But what makes someone empty headed loser? A mindless loser? Narrow minded? Absent minded? Moronic? Stupid? Foolish? Dumb? How do i be a man? Do i have to be serious about everything? Or never serious?

I feel like the worlds most piece of shit person. I feel so low and feel like others never ever value me and feel like they see me as inferior and naive and brainless guy with no personality.

I feel inane, ludicrous, daft, bonehead, witless, nonsensical..

And i fap a lot. And i feel like i have to stop lookinh for approval of others. Might fix most things but there are a lot of things going on my head about whats wrong with me. And always compare my self to the losers of movies.

Thanks.