I can barely step outside due to anxiety of being attacked or getting into a confrontation with someone.

I'm not very assertive and I'm very insecure in myself.

I live in New York and sometimes I come across rude and arrogant people and they really piss me off. I dont know how to deal with them or people in general or how to take care of myself.

I have very low self esteem and I have a hard time absorbing and recalling information when I need it. I dont know how to explain it, but I'm not able to take care of business and do a lot of things in life like making a police, getting back home via public transportation, making connections with people etc. I dont even know what I dont know and where to start or what or how to improve myself. Any advice?