Hi, I'm 19yo, 4 years ago I was really shy and insecure, I tried to make small steps socializing till I become more comfortable with people. 1 Year ago, I wasn't really shy, but I had no motivation to talk with people because I was fapping once, twice even more than that per day.

Now I am really ok, more confident, I learned how to make fun of my mistakes and fun of me. Now, almost everywhere I can make some fun. One of 5 people that I meet become GOOD friends.

But the problem is that I am still a virgin, even if I am comfortable around girls.

I have a girl that she wants to be my gf, she's like 7-7.5. She said that she would like to fuck me just if we would be in a relationship. The problem is that she is really boring and I know that the relationship will not gonna last long. I don't really want to waste my and her time.

She is instable emotionally, desesperated to find a bf. She said that one guy that just fcuked her and left.

So.. I dont knwo what to do.. It can be a waste of time, but also I can learn something.. Should I tell her that I would like just to have some fun? To be honest with her? And if She says "no" then I leave?