Where to start. First time I post here. Hopefully I do everything right.

I've been following this since '08. I've read "the game" back in the day and in my early 20's I did alright. There was a time I was sleeping with 12 different girls at my work.

Fast forward and now I'm in my 30's. I'm a practicing salesman.

Here's my dilemma,and I don't know where to go. I am not closing.

I can open anyone. I can make anyone like me with in minutes. Not bragging just expressing that I have taken what's being taught here and put it into practice.

I almost never get into a socially awkward situation. I have girls ask me out and I STILL don't close.

Now I've been with women as I mentioned earlier. I've been with prolly around 60. So I'm not completely new at this. But I still can't close. Almost every time I've hooked up with a girl, it's because she's initiated it.

Even when in a relationship, the sex becomes awkward because I don't know how to initiate it. 

Now I know the steps. I get that part. ( maintain eye contact. Speak slowly and from your stomach, escalate the touch )

But still not closing.

So I think it's something deeper than the steps. Because it's the same in sales. I do door to door. And I could walk up to any house and get them to immediately fall in love with me and prolly invite me into their house. Can't close

I've thought about it an insane amount and I've come to the conclusion that I don't like to persuade people's opinions. ( I have a few reasons, 1. I don't like showing my intention because it changes how I'm perceived , which makes it harder for me to control the next person. 2. I have limiting beliefs that are telling me that it's scummy to persuade or influence someone.

If anyone has any advice for me. I'll take it. I'm so lost. I should be making money as a salesman but I don't cause I don't ask to close. I should be sleeping with beautiful women regularly but I don't because I don't ask them to leave with me.

And even when I do ask, I feel bad. Like I tricked them or they're doing it out of pity. I don't know. I'm rambling, I have a million things I wish I could tell you guys so you could better understand where I'm coming from.

TL:DR - I've had moderate success with women but it's mostly their doing cause I'm a decent looking guy. I can't close and I need to figure out what's holding me back.