It was my cousin's wedding today. Being a close relative (her mother and my father are siblings), I got to know some of his sister's (she being my cousin too ofcourse) friends. Pretty chill people. Later during the main wedding ceremony, her other group came which had some 3-4 beautiful girls. I specifically liked her one friend a lot, and started developing so many sentences which would help me approach her. I even thought of telling my cousin to introduce me to her but then I remembered, she told me those 2-3 girl friends of her (which I had found attractive) doesn't have a nice rapport with her, hence I thought asking her wouldn't be a good thing.

I started overthinking a lot. Like a lot! I always see myself as an average looking guy (6.5-7/10, maybe?), thus making ne wonder why would I be getting a positive response from such an attractive (solid 10/10) girl. Furthermore, she was always surrounded by her friends, which made me feel more anxious. I thought, how was I now supposed to approach her if she's surrounded and what if one of them is her boyfriend?

I'm back home now, wasted 5 goddamn long hours, just after building courage, framing sentences and what not. I now, hate myself for not atleast approaching or talking to her. Should have talked, asked her name. Damn, I still think about her. If not her, should have atleast talked to either of the other 2 girls, that I had found attractive. Atleast, would have made friends with them.

I regret and hate myself for this!