For the longest time, I've been chasing "love" or wtvr. Now I stopped cuz I don't really care for it and I realized its not gonna benefit me atm (im 19M, never been in a relationship). Now that I don't have that chaser's mentality and inferiority complex (I was VERY insecure and shy) I've been told that a nice number of my female customers and coworkers find me interesting.

I am pretty quiet and tend to stay to myself, but lately I've been trying to initiate the conversations more. Im not a loud speaker and my voice is deep so its hard to hear me in crowded places and wtvr, so naturally they'll come closer to hear me lol. And idk whats wrong with me, but my brain is kinda stuck on "thinking outside the box" so I usually have a different point of view on topics, which helps ig.

I feel like my post is kinda all over the place, but all in all, I don't really care to interact with my colleagues and customers I find attractive unless its something work related. Guess I just gave up lol. Maybe when i feel like I'm in a better place (mentally) I'll shoot shots. But I have stuff I plan on chopping off the to-do list (like I want a car, and my friends and I are planning on moving in our own place). Can't afford distractions yfm?