I don’t even know what the hell happened because I’ve never done this. I walked up and said something to this chick, and we started vibing immediately. I could tell she was a bit drunk but so was I. Everything happened really fast, we got all close and I grabbed her ass n shit, she loved it. We started walking to a bar together and she had a fried and I was with mine. Well my buddy walked off because he wasn’t feeling the friend and he’s kinda weird too, but I told myself I should stick with him since we made plans to go out, so I was in the mindset of chillin w him even tho I always want chicks when we go out (pretty much why we do). I basically left her while she was hot for me because I knew there was a good chance I would’ve hooked up with her..to go with my buddy who’s not even a great friend to do this stuff with but….

Might have something to do with the way I see myself and how I carry myself but life doesn’t reflect that, like I feel deep shame or some shit, and somehow it effected my ability to be a little vulnerable. I’m kinda like WTF is wrong with me rn lol but