I have my mind in the right place, I no longer feel insecure about women (I used to think I was completely undesirable to them and would be desperate for their approval) I have hobbies and different interests, all the good shit we talk about.

I don't have many ways to interact with women except work, they're all married, but it's good and helps me improve my communication. The problem I have is approaching strangers. In theory it's so easy, but when I see a girl that I'm attracted to, it's usually not ideal, it will never be, so I come up with convincing reasons not to do it.

Literally a few minutes go by and I regret my decision, the reasons I had are now stupid and I should've done it anyway. Then I proceed to get mad at myself, and remind me that I only have one life, stoicism, cynicism,. Yada yada.

And then next time, the same happens... I approached before, and had different experiences, but only once a girl wasn't bothered by my mere presence. The look and vibe they give, it's like they just a rat or something. This keeps me from trying again.

So I'll feel powerless about approaching, gather some knowledge, build some confidence, just to fail myself and the loop starts again.

Ps: I'm aware that the justifications on this post are just that, justifications.