I broke up after 10 years of relationship for her being a spoiled, opportunistic, money loving, work hating woman. I suddenly found myself in a difficult time (little money no stable job), telling her I couldn’t marry and give her a baby right away as she wanted.

And she.. basically disappeared like a ghost. I suspect she was already having an affair so skipped to plan B.

First months went smooth, but everything is harder and harder every month passing by.

Now: I try to stay active on Tinder and Instagram, few girls (even very beautiful ones) are totally ok for a date but..

I feel emotionally broken, lacking self esteem, I don’t feel like doing anything (I even struggle in answering messages) and many times, just to avoid to disappoint the ladies by unintentionally showing my dark or broken side, I just ghost them or invent excuses to avoid a date.

Would it be better to accept those dates or better to wait until I re-built myself instead?