I Have several girlfriends, in open relationships, and I am not unused to being with girls who have other guys. But I have a couple girls who I am honest and open with, but basic feel I am in long term relationships with. I always promote open sexuality, because I have though about it, and that is the type of man I want to be, and thought I was, until today my Main girl tells me she gave a handjob to this guy who basically swept her off her feet earlier this week. She says she was feeling experimental, and felt she did not want to persue anything with this other man, but I still feel absolutely crushed.

The worst part is I feel horrible that I feel this way, I have several other women, and I can't even practice what I preach, the more I think about things, the more down I feel, and I basically had to ditch her and go home, because it felt too awful. What's worse is by becoming so sad I basically broke the relationship by setting up a premis of punishment for honestly, which means I can never be sure if she will be truly honest with me ever again for fear of hurting me.

Meditation, sleep, exercise, focus on my professional life. All these I will do, but does anybody have any tricks, magic bullets, deep insights, or any other alternative methods of getting over these feeling and changing into the man who is open honest, and does NGAF?

Also, does anybody have and advice on how to mend the relationship? I'm not worried about loosing her, so much as loosing this amazing open relationship that took so long to build.