Last night I spend some time with my long time crush. I have known her for more than a year. We have spent more than 200+ hours together. I had asked her out a year back but she she refused back then saying she didn't feel the vibe. Now things are starting to gear up again. I have been realizing my frame gets really weak. I get all flustered and confused. I feel terribly uncomfortable in letting a girl get to know me and feel like I am being constantly judged. This is what my biggest issue is. I feel like my frame is very weak. Plus I was high which wasn't the best thing to do. How do I not turn into a little boy when I am with this women!? Any advice from people suffering from this?

Edit: Based on this thread and other conversations I had yesterday

Boy energy: Fumbling, nervous, hurry to get in a women's pants, all over the women, constantly selling yourself, seeking validation, not confident in one self, boasting, putting women down, hyper vigilant

Man energy: Focused, goal oriented but flexible, calm, let women come to them, creates safe space, humble, kind, not seeking validation but companionship, growth and helping women grow, calm and vigilant