I sit here in my hotel room after another date going nowhere and feeling so despondent.. she laughs at my jokes, she looks like she's having a good time, you speak loads to her, you both flirt with each other, yet it always ends the same way.. "sorry I don't see you in that way" or "we're looking for different things". Where the hell am I going wrong?

I just feel so shitty about myself, people I know are getting married, in long term relationships, my dad was married just after my current age. I'm just shy of 25, I know we don't normally look to settle down and that it's not right for everyone, but at least a lot of guys can pick up girls or can seem to maintain attraction. I can't. I feel like a complete failure when it comes to women.

I've had 2 relationships, both very short term - 1 month and 6 months. One I went off to University and thought I'd have better success there.. Yeah good one. The other moved down to London from Newcastle, so a 4 hour train journey was too long and we both started getting frustrated with each other.

I'm sat here after 2 dates in 2 days, both ending the way I wrote above, I've dated a lot of women and I think there's only been a handful where I've thought it's gone badly where there was no spark. So what the hell's my problem? I'm fine with the initial attraction, I just can't seem to keep it going.. As I say I'm 25, English, 6 ft 2-3 (never properly measured myself), slim but have some lean muscle, in my opinion I don't think I'm that ugly (I don't look like Sloth from The Goonies, so I've got that going for me which is nice), dirty sand coloured hair, blue eyes.. etc etc.

I'm useless when it comes to women - I'm a failure. That's why I'm now here I need re-wire myself, I want to become a better man, I want to be able to teach myself (or learn) where I've failed before and just become better. I need to learn how to attract and keep attracting women and just having the capability of finding a partner that I'll be happy with.

Thanks for reading and I hope to potentially be someone who will linger and hopefully one day find happiness... (soppy af I know)