She was sitting down on a couch and I just approached and said "excuse me real quick, I'm about to leave in a minute, but I think you're cute so I thought I'd come say hi". Then she says "thank you" then retreats into herself from nervousness. Mind you, this is in the engineer building at my university so I'm like either my approach was really bad, she's not into it, she is just socially awkward, or a combination of all of them. Anyways, her reaction was outside of my expectations because she says nothing. I thought she'd either be receptive or cold and rude and didn't expect that strange reaction so then I was caught off guard and my mind froze. I'm just standing there and no one's saying anything, so I literally aborted. I just laugh and I'm like "well allright, have a good one".

I only approached 5 times ever in the past 6 months. And those were my first approaches ever in life, at 22 years old. My AA is that bad. All those approaches were either REALLY indirect with barely any show of interest, or straight up just a friendly talk. All dates or anything else I've ever had were handed to me, and happened a long time ago, so it's basically void. So the fact that I could even make a statement of interest so directly like that and call someone cute has blown my mind. I've never been that vulnerable before in terms of expressing sexual interest. I feel like I'm opening a door to humble myself through approaching, express my sexuality, and conquer my inner insecurity of being judged by the people around me. A few those are also my biggest sticking points in life in general. It'll be interesting to see how growing in game will affect my life in those areas too. I kid you not, I think that if I didn't take this jump to do cold approach, I would always be scared to take risks in life and be truly vulnerable. I've even taken psychedelics before at decent doses, and the level of stress and self-reflection is up there with cold approach. It's even more telling about myself and my weaknesses compared to psyches.

My next goal is to approach three people directly in a single day, which is a huge jump. And for some of those to be around other people, so I can start learning to ngaf how those around judge me.