im a 16 year old male, and last weekend i went to my first real party. i had quite a lot to drink, which was probably for the best as i loosened up a lot after a couple of beers. there was obviously girls there - not loads, about 10 -15 and i knew none of them. I wont give every minor detail but I had so much fun at that party. there was this guy who i was there that i want to get to be closer friends with, at that party he got two numbers and made out with a girl without even trying, im gonna hopefully learn a few things from him. he's known me for a while but we never really hung out much, but he seems to think im cool as he asked me to go shopping with him to get new clothes next weekend (i mentioned i needed some new shoes) and hopefully he'll ask me to hang out more in the future. i tried talking ot one of the girls, but it was obvious after about a minute that she wasnt interested. i didnt get any numbers or anything, but this is a good step forward for me. old me would have been even more awkward in that converstaion and then got really bummed out when i realized she didnt like me. but i just continued dancing. and that's another thing - i fucking danced! it might seem trivial to some of you but once upon a time i wouldnt even consider dancing, even when drunk. this experience also sparked a new conflict inside my head - am i an introvert or an extrovert? as a kid i thought i was an extrovert, mainly becuase i was weird but at that time i had no inhibitions about being weird. in the last few years i have thought that im now an introvert, due to the fact that i spend most of my time inside, alone and im not really a social person. but in the aftermath of this party i felt really good about myself - better than i have in over a year - but this feeling slowly faded as the memory of the party drifted into the past. so this got me thinking, maybe i am an extrovert, i just also have social anxiety, which i am working on curing.