(using a throwaway)

So basically, I was at this party yesterday. I have not had sexual contact with girls in one and a half years now. Read lots of posts on this board and I actually felt confident to at least try and initiate conversation with some girls. Which I did, and it actually was quite enjoyable.

So far so good. Friends of me were there and we got pretty drunk fast. They had this game where everyone got a little note on their drinks which had an assignment for the evening on it. Mine was to pinch someone I didn't know in the butt. Fuck yeah.

I pinched this one cute girl and she actually was impressed that I had the balls to do that. Well, my social anxiety kinda kicked in and i got scared and walked away.

I decided to try it again later on, still had my note. Shortly before the party was over I was standing in this group of guys with one cute girl and pinched her. She loved it. Talked a few sentences, still in the group, she fondeled my beard for a sec. Then she told me i was the hottest guy in the group and she still had her note left and she wanted to take me home with her to fulfill her assignment. Wow, that escalated quickly. Not even three minutes had passed until we met.

My brain blew a fuse and I didn't know how to react. So what did I do? Run away screaming. Yep, that's right.

It was intended for comedic effect at first, but after the first few steps I realized that actually I really wanted to run away because I couldnt handle the situation. I was really drunk but that's not even an excuse.

I think I need more serious help than seddit posts. Not that they are not great and all, but I think I'm more seriously fucked up than I thought.

TL;DR - Girl wants to take me home. I run away screaming.