So here I am once again wondering the streets of beantown not being able to approach. I must be a huge pussy because all I can think when I see these girls walking by me is "approach" and I just don't do it. I was concerned about the people behind me that I'd be inconveniencing by stopping foot traffic. I was worried about not getting the attention of all the girls I saw wearing headphones. I was worried about looking like a freak tapping girls on the shoulder and trying to talk to them. Is this what people mean when they talk about social conditioning? I drove out of my way to come down here and daygame and the only things that come to mind are me thinking I'm a big shit cus I try to daygame but when I actually go out and try to do it I'm a pussy and can't approach. Not to mention the hundreds of couples that walk by me and all I think is "I want that" but at this rate it's never going to happen. My pacer app reads 3.6 miles walked today and I can guarantee 3 of those miles are me just walking up and down the streets not being able to approach. The only thing I have right now is that I asked three girls for directions and none of them were good interactions. I don't want to give up and I don't think I am. I love visiting the city regardless and I will continue to direct my career to living there someday.

Don't take this as a plead for sympathy, I'm not looking for that. I just wanted to write down my thoughts somewhere.