When I was 18 years old I decided to go to a music school. This was the worst decision of my life. The school was 99% dudes, there was no college life at all (no clubs or greek life) and even worse I stayed with my parents to save money. Well now that I'm graduated and realize what a waste that degree was. I'm working some grocery store job while living with my parents and regretting every day that I followed my passion. What makes it worse is my parents could have afforded my entire tuition if I went to a normal University. I could have focused on becoming more social, independent and gone on dates. I keep hearing college is the prime time for dates and sex and now I can't get over the fact I missed out on it.

The woman I started dating at 22 was going to a normal University.

She told me about the guys she hooked up with and they really weren't even that attractive (one was a straight up by the books chubby computer nerd) She said her entire friend group hooked up with this dude and that honestly made me bitter and angry. What makes it worse is all her friends keep telling her how attractive I am. I feel like I missed out on so much.

I was a socially isolated virgin who worked out and cared about his appearance while this nerdy weird looking dude was getting laid left and right just due to his circumstances and convenience.

Well this regret has festered into my game. I do plan to go back to school for a different degree but I will definitely be older than my classmates. I feel like the fact I didn't have a college experience has turned me bitter and prevents me from being the confident attractive man that I strive to be. I feel like I can't even do seduction because this event has caused me to just be bitter and negative.

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