This is a one itis post, but different because I don't want the girl now but I want to use this opportunity as a self improvement thing that'll help me later in life.

So this girl in my college, I have massive oneitis for her and the problem is approaching isn't giving me any results thanks to massive inner game problems and I'm trying to fix them badly.

The massive oneitis is pointless since I don't even know this girl and inside i know I'm not actually attracted but projecting the image of an ideal woman onto her. i analysed my fantasies and realised that just because she's popular I'm onto her because that'd give me social proof, and my lazy brain approves that since I won't have to work for the social proof i want from people if I get her.

Also, I've have had a couple stares that actually mean jack shit, and also i analysed her looking down when I saw her and I'm still hoping I'll get her and all. And judging by the Models quote "If you're more invested in her than she is in you, you're never getting her" and I know inside I'm not but the false hopes are traumatising!

My problem is I'm too much in my head. I don't live in the reality, I fantasize a lot about things. Listening to a new song and I'm fantaizing about performing it, reading a new topic and I'm fantasizing about explaining it to somebody (in front of my crush, in fantasies so as to get validation).

I've read many books on inner game but I just can't get the ideas into my head and apply them to practise thanks to false hopes and hollywoodistic ideas in my head. I also meditate but the fantasizing pleasure is so strongly embedded in my mind's system that i simply can't let go of these fantasies. After quitting masturbation (nofap) i realised my fantasies are more about impressing girls and making them blush, rather than giving them orgasms.

I'm driven with regret because of the same fantasizing problem and it's ruining my life. It's easier said than done to unwire your brain since your mind is addicted to the problems. This is affecting my inner game badly and I want to change this and even making myselves busy isn't helping. How do I do that?

Side note: Please be hard on me. All my problems are pointless and I really want to familiarise myselves with reality so i can rewire my head completely.