Today I openend my eye's and realised i'm not living the life I want too. I treat the people, who treat me like shit, nice and the people who treat me nice, like shit. Like today "my so callled friends" who have been fucking third wheeling me for month just proved how much they cared about me today. They were buying something, I waited for them. I was buying something, they just went on without me. They over talk+ignore me. They don't even say bye to me when they leave. I just realised how bad some human being's are. I can easily hangout with cool people in my school and be super popular, get all the hot girls, but why aren't I? It's because I'm being myself (lazy, no effort, overall boring and self hating) when I should be the best me possible. The badass I think I could be.

Seddit I went through my own post history, It's sad in my eye's, but i'm thankful that I realised my main problemb.

  1. To scared to do things I want too.
  2. Care about other people's opinion
  3. Scared of rejection
  4. I gossip waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much
  5. Always talk about negative things So i'm not going to waste another day thinking of what could happenend, I'm going to make happenend.

Monday i'm going to school, hangout with my friends I ditched and be cool, i'm going to talk the girl I quit because I was to lazy to escalate with. I'm going to be my best self. No fucks given.

Lastly to the girl I had oneitis on but me constantly believing I didn't, thank you for opening my eyes. When I be my true self, I hope I can show her the good life i'm having and the one she missed.

Ty seddit for the help over the months, i'm going to use all the knowledge I learned from this sub, and use it to my full power! Love or hate me, so be it.