Hello redit! Im an 18 yr old mail who for the most part of my teenage life have struggled with females. Not just talking to them or being friends with them just 'them' in general. Over the past half a year or so this has started to change, iv had a couple of one night stands, all of them being pretty ave ridge experiences (the nights themselves was fun, but the sex was shit). I started to find myself getting worked up over the fact that i wasnt able to get into a relationship. Its something that has bothered me for my whole teenage life. I recently found my self falling for a friend from work. Shes way out of my league and a super nice girl in general, but i did the usual thing i do and put any hope i had of us having a relationship to the back of my mind, because i always get let down. We are really good friends but we sometimes kiss when we go out, i always take this for being because shes drunk. But then the other night we ended up fucking after a night out. I started to build things up in my head, thinking of relationships and such and it sort of dawned on me that i do have strong emotions towards her. And by the way she acted she felt the same way. I took her on a date two nights ago, really nice evening (really expensive one at that) but i could tell something was of. I confronted her about it and apparently she dosnt want a relationship and just wants to be mates. I was pretty upset about all this, once again i had been cursed with the dreaded freind zone, the bane of my life that seems to follow me where ever i go. But now that iv sort of gotten over it, i realize that maybe the single lifestyle is the one for me. Every time i get feelings for someone it always goes sour and i dont want anymore of the head fuckery that comes with my one sided relationships. What i have found is that this has been a massive confidence booster, any tips for getting out there and having fun? im going to stay Friends with this girl btw, i don't want to feel jealous though when i see her with other guys so im going to give her a bit of a break. Have know idea whether this is the right sub to write this, don't really know what it is tbh a story i guess, theirs a question in there to! Think i just want to get things of my chest :D