I remember couple of months back, I would come home depressed after seeing the couples. I could not hold a conversation with anyone beyond the usual questions, the 1-2 times I did approach I got instant rejections and I felt like shit afterwords. Now I have gone for coffee with random girls, not dates exactly but at least both of us had a good time. Girls no longer instantly reject me but they say thank you and I'm at some level able to connect with them. Long way to go of course, but a couple of things which happened over last week gave me such a confidence boost.

I got my first number - I must have approached 15 girls before this one - ok she then kind of is texting back when I text her but otherwise ignoring me. But that's ok and I've moved on.

Today for the first time, I made approaches on my own, the first approach went ok but it got better each time. Sure all of them were rejections and I need to learn how to polarise more and use stronger body language but I feel addicted to the feeling of connecting with a random stranger. It feels amazing.

I hope it is the start of a beautiful journey, if not the results I at least will have a lot of funny stories to tell, and have lots of fun. It is the only thing in my hands.

Thank you all. You are an inspiration.