So I'm past the point when most people have lost their virginity (19m) and it's becoming incredibly worrying for me. I'm not sure whether I want my first time to be meaningless so I can use it as a learning experience or meaningful so that I can remember it. There's a girl here at school (9.999/10) that I'm interested in that says she wants to wait until she's married and wants to marry a Virgin, I'm considering that idea too. TL;DR: I don't know whether my first time should be meaningless, meaningful, or whether I should wait until I'm married