I will try my best to make this concise and as little "woe is me" as i can.

Background I am a 21 year old brown virgin guy in his last year of university. This fact about me being a virgin has broken me down to the point where i dont care about anything else. I put aside partying and going out throughout highschool and university to pursue my lifelong goal of becoming a doctor (my own goal, not something my parents forced on me, surprisingly.) But see this is alpha and hot when some handsome white guy that already gets girls does it but when some virgin brown guy buckles down to study, no one gives a shit.

I was initially happy that i got myself to a high GPA and MCAT (medical exam) score but then i opened my eyes and took a look around. People with the same scores, same GPAs and same overall competitive applicants who had an entirely different university experience. They partied, they hooked up, they travelled, they had fun. Now im sitting here feeling like i lost my chance.

The Problem

Money used to excite me, travelling used to excite me, being able to help people in need with my knowledge used to excite me, having a son someday so i could be a better father than my dad used to excite me too but now im lethargic and lost for meaning all because i never got to be with a girl.

No matter how many books i read or sleepless nights im willing to endure, i'll never be taller than 5'7, i'll never be any less brown or anymore attractive to women.

I'm a nearly 22 year old loser that hasnt even kissed a girl. I think about this all day everyday. And its gotten to the point where i dont even wanna pursue it anymore cause its too embarrassing since i dont know what to do with them physically.

I lift, i dress well, smell good, deep voice, make them laugh, naturally had a little cocky attitude all that. I tried all the bullshit "Think you're the prize, they will too". No. The prize is the taller, white guys that she'd be proud to be seen with. How can you "fake it till you make it" when on the inside you feel like a complete bitch and less of a man than everybody else around.

If anything, all thats possible for me is being the 30 year old guy who's existence gets acknowledged cause he has money. I don't know if i want to live a life in which i cant even get girls. No matter how many accomplishments i have or progress i make, this aspect of my life overshadows it all.

Instead of being grateful towards my parents for all they've done, i'm resentful and angry that they took away my youth by always pushing me towards "study, avoid girls, live LATER".

I have exams in two weeks and no will to open my notes so the one part of my life going well (education) could also be gone within a month.

I honestly am not looking for sympathy or a pat on the back, these words are just how my thoughts were in my head.

Just tell me practically and straight up, is there a point to keep going/what should i do or is it just more of the suffering?