I've been extremely depressed and suicidal for years. Recently after yet another disastrous experience with a woman I started introspecting. Reading. Meditating. And reading about MGTOW theory.

It was an epiphany. Everything MGTOW was telling me about women was exactly what I had experienced with them and what I finally understood about them. Everything rang true.

I'll spare you the details and keep it short (somewhat), but basically I was an absolute simp and a total loser. Zero confidence. Kept putting on a mask and betraying my very principles just to please women and appear appealing to them. Kept ignoring red flags. And the worst part: kept depending on them for my own happiness.

I understood where my depression came from. It came from two things. 1) This world is rotten, corrupt and decadent. Stoicism taught me how to deal with it. 2) I depended on women for my own fucking happiness. MGTOW cured it.

I stopped fantasizing about the unicorn dream. I stopped treating and considering women like men or hoping for a best friend with a pussy. I stopped believing I could find a girl with similar hobbies to mine and with whom I could hold deep conversations and have a meaningful relationship. I stopped believing a woman would support me with my hardships like I would support her with hers. Basically, I swallowed the red pill.

I've also cut down fake friends from my life. I'm 30 and I only have two friends. We don't even live in the same city anymore. But I can tell them whatever, I can share my passions with them, I can talk about meaningful things with them until dawn. Their friendship brings me something. Women never did.

I've stopped pretending. I'm just living my own way. I now know who I truly am, what I truly want and more importantly what I truly DON'T want. I've done and forced myself to so many things I actually didn't enjoy because I thought they would make me closer to women.

Nowadays I spend most of my time alone and I love it. Being alone used to be soulcrushing to me. I wanted to spend my days with a woman. Now I love it. I'm learning to play the guitar, I read books, I play (good, no Fortnite or whatever pointless dopamine simulator garbage there is) videogames, I watch movies and animes, I spend time with my pets, I listen to music, I don't bother forcing myself to socialize with uninteresting and boring people (men or women alike) anymore.

I've never been happier. I'm not depressed anymore. I love myself. I'm happy with being alone with myself. I don't consider suicide anymore, even though I wouldn't mind dying because modern world and life do suck when you have principles.

MGTOW and Stoicism did what years of seeing shrinks and "seeking help" couldn't do. These two things are the healthiest and best things that have ever happened to my life.

... and yet I just found out Reddit quarantined this sub. Clown world. But I still love you all. Thanks brothers.