Are you emotionally attracted to girls?

Are you emotionally attracted to girls?

I have high standards, especially for a relationship. Some of my friends literally don't understand me rejecting girls on account of them being 'sluts.' For the record, any girl can be a slut if she wants - it's just a turn off for me.

I'm not new to trp, I was never particularly beta - I got somewhat friend zoned just once.

However, girls have always subtly been on a pedestal in my mind. If I'm going on holiday, the main thing on my mind was to meet a girl. I'm going to university, and meeting new girls was a high priority. Even working on myself and progressing had the end goal of women - if I really did progress girls would find me more attractive, like a test. All my life, under the surface, the one direction I had was to be attractive to women.

This has always been an emotional thing - even if it was with multiple girls I wanted to get close to them, do cute shit and spend time together. (After sex)

But now, I've swallowed another pill, and see that women are too promiscuous for me to have this emotional attraction. Ideally women would be sweet and innocent, although very sexual in a committed relationship. This is not how girls are, and now I'm completely turned off to the idea of anything remotely emotional with a girl.

I'm presuming this is a phase, and that in time I'll be able to have sex with girls whilst seeing them for who they actually are, and eventually come to have a relationship with a girl, knowing full well that under the cute appearance she's a slut who is constantly trying to take power from me.

Is anyone else in this place? More experienced people: do you love girls now, or was that a thing of the past? What is your primary direction? (If it's not girls)

At the moment, it seems that my emotional attraction to girls, and their inherent sluttyness are mutually exclusive. The idea of cuddling a girl, or comforting them as they cry seems to be a thing of the past for me now.